Allah has answered my prayers as He always does.
I am eternally grateful. Coincidentally, such answers to my thoughts come late at night. heh. After all, 2am-4am are the times when one is really close to Allah.

All those thoughts about life and deeds are clearer in our mind in the wee hours of the morning. As such, its really helped me get through the day much better. I cant imagine myself being so dispirited all day. So anyway, after last nights conversation, the answer to my confusion was delivered. Ahh, I'm returning more and more to myself with each passing day

I have more self-belief now.

"Just hold on. I figured myself out"