Apparently, blogger is now fully under Google which means I cant access my old blog as it was linked to hotmail instead. 

Anyway, I was going into full retrospect and the weight of the ramifications resulting from the things I've done hit me full force. I'm not proud of what I have done. I am guilty and have no excuse for what has happened. I have no answer. I do not know how to mitigate. I feel absolutely horrible. Astarghfirullahalzim