Is this why I'm pushed away by people? because I was deemed to be too good?
Is this why I have so few close friends who truly understand me?

Sigh.

All I ever wanted was to live my life to the fullest. Every minute counted. Every action whole hearted.
I never wanted to be a great person. I just wanted to be seen as an equal by everyone. I wanted to learn in school. Strive hard for everything. Be a good person that I can be. Find my own limits in life. Was that really too much? All I ever wanted was to be someone everyone could be proud of and me doing the same in the return.

Oh whats the point.

I never wanted to be great. I never wanted power. I never wanted to be looked up by others and be expected to do great things. I never asked for it either. I never wanted all those because I wanted to live my life for those around me.

I want to live my simple life and be happy for myself and for everyone.Oh God, this is ridiculous what I'm doing.



What I REALLY want is to live my life for someone or at least someone by my side.