Sigh. Why are we so afraid of each other?

Oh God, if this is my punishment for any sin, then guide me along to realize my mistake and to learn from it. Oh God, please do not burden me with more than we can bear. Please grant her eternal happiness

Please bestow your blessings upon us and give us the courage to overcome this challenge.
Oh God, please have mercy and let the best be brought out between us

For you

Is this why I'm pushed away by people? because I was deemed to be too good?
Is this why I have so few close friends who truly understand me?

Sigh.

All I ever wanted was to live my life to the fullest. Every minute counted. Every action whole hearted.
I never wanted to be a great person. I just wanted to be seen as an equal by everyone. I wanted to learn in school. Strive hard for everything. Be a good person that I can be. Find my own limits in life. Was that really too much? All I ever wanted was to be someone everyone could be proud of and me doing the same in the return.

Oh whats the point.

I never wanted to be great. I never wanted power. I never wanted to be looked up by others and be expected to do great things. I never asked for it either. I never wanted all those because I wanted to live my life for those around me.

I want to live my simple life and be happy for myself and for everyone.Oh God, this is ridiculous what I'm doing.



What I REALLY want is to live my life for someone or at least someone by my side.

O Allah, Ever have You given me the best of what was best for me. I am ever grateful to every blessing and hardship that you have bestowed upon me. Ever have You been the Al-Wali (protecting friend) to me in times of need. You are truly the Great.

I am thankful to have been bestowed this honour by You. I am thankful to have completed my education. I am thankful for the family that I have though it is drifted. I am thankful to have the knowledge and wisdom that you have granted me. I am thankful for the food I eat and the clothes on my back.I am thankful for the friends you have brought into my life.

Oh God, Please protect her from all evil. Please give her the strength and courage in times of need and hardship. Please guide her along the right path in life and not toward waywardness. Let her be the very best of all that she is. Bestow on her the strength and courage that you have bestowed upon me and others. Let her not feel any ill-heartedness and misgivings nor let ill-heartedness or misgiving fall toward her. Let her not feel the hunger nor the fatigue so that she may be swayed. Grant her the knowledge and wisdom to light her path to be a  Please let me be the best of what a good friend can be to her. Please forgive her sins and do not impose blame upon her if she has forgotten or erred. Let her not be blamed for any misdeed that she did not commit. Lay not a burden upon her that she has no ability to bear. Please forgive me for my misdeeds, harsh words or any form of harm that I have unintentionally inflicted on her for they were NEVER my intentions.

I have faith in You to grant the best for her for you are All-knowing and Al-mighty.

Oh Allah, my words do not represent the clear meaning of my heart but only You truly understand me. Please save me from my own carelessness of my hands, mouth, eyes and ears. Save me from my own forgetfulness and inadequacy.

Oh Allah, hear my prayers for my friend