I'm just sad and hurt that you didnt tell me. I feel I committed a big sin to you by making you feel like that today. The night you broke up with azri, I promised myself that I would look after you and never make you feel afraid, lost or unwanted. I'm not good at my own actions and words but I thought you'd understand the intentions from my heart and see through my words.

I thought that you'd have the courage to tell me just about everything even if it concerned me. But I was wrong.
I'm just simply building back my wall because we're better off that way. My own mistakes would just keep on hurting you and I dont want that to happen. Please dont argue with me about this after reading that. You'd have to agree that I was much better before I broke down that wall. I broke down that wall because I trusted you to help me without it but it hasnt been helping me much.

I'm sorry I expected so much out of you because I looked up to you. I still do look up to you though.

I better stop here before I get misunderstood. I'm really too exhausted to think and finish off what I want to say