I'm just sad and hurt that you didnt tell me. I feel I committed a big sin to you by making you feel like that today. The night you broke up with azri, I promised myself that I would look after you and never make you feel afraid, lost or unwanted. I'm not good at my own actions and words but I thought you'd understand the intentions from my heart and see through my words.

I thought that you'd have the courage to tell me just about everything even if it concerned me. But I was wrong.
I'm just simply building back my wall because we're better off that way. My own mistakes would just keep on hurting you and I dont want that to happen. Please dont argue with me about this after reading that. You'd have to agree that I was much better before I broke down that wall. I broke down that wall because I trusted you to help me without it but it hasnt been helping me much.

I'm sorry I expected so much out of you because I looked up to you. I still do look up to you though.

I better stop here before I get misunderstood. I'm really too exhausted to think and finish off what I want to say

Im lost. Im really lost.
Now I cant help others because I'm in a mess. Its like im trapped in a bubble.

Honestly, I need this time to be selfish and disappear for a while. sigh

O Allah, please give me and my loved ones the strength and courage to endure this day.

Ah heck. If only blogger was like tumblr.

So anyway, I saw this on md's blog.

Saw this at a website from a friend...

ISLAM IS BEAUTIFUL

"Dont marry this 6 females;those who are ananah, mananah, hananah, hadaqah, baraqah, syadaqah." - Imam Al-Ghazali

Ananah:

A girl who always complains and nags and can be whiny
-Even acting as if she's sick or in pain just for some attention

Mananah:

A girl who likes to "ungkit" or repeat old stories to make you feel bad
-Like saying, "how could you! I did all those things for you!" OR "its your turn this time, that day i did that for you"

Hananah:

A girl who shows affection and express love to other men other than her 1 husband
-Maybe to her EX? like.... "my ex was the best" or directly talking with desires to other men

Hadaqah:

A girl who once chance or look upon something nice, would express her desire to own them AND forces her husband to buy!

Sooner or later you'll be bankrupt! hahah! get out!

Baraqah:

1) A girl who always make-up and touch-up her face the WHOLE DAY! never failing and dieing to look gorgeous to all men other than her husband.
2) A girl who may be angry while eating or feasting, to the extent of wanting to eat alone...

Syadaqah:

A girl who talks alot of unnecessary words which are redundant, unimportant, repetitive and noisy! NAGGY?

This is sooo true, i wouldnt want my future wife to be any of these
Okay you know WHO not to choose already ryte? hahaha

Its funny that I dreamt I was feeling the tremors of an earthquake just a day before that earthquake in Japan.

I feel like an asshole now

Why has it begun to be increasingly difficult to get my words out?

I remember how much I used to listen to this almost everyday.